Transformation
Transformation will happen instantly. Transformation happens simultaneously with understanding and acceptance. Then you will not have to wait for it. Will you wait until tomorrow if you know your house is on fire? You will get out of your house in a split second. The day we fully see our life as it is – and it is a house on fire – the moment of transformation arrives. But we have our own deceptive ways. The house is on fire and we have decorated its interior with flowers. Our hands are in chains and we have coated the chains with gold, and so while we see the glitter of gold we fail to see the chains. We are full of illnesses and wounds, but we have covered our wounds with colorful bandages, and we see the colors and not the wounds behind them.
This deception is so deep and vast that we spend our lifetime in it and the moment of transformation does not come. We go on postponing that moment. Death comes, but not the moment that had been postponed. We die, but we do not change; we are simply incapable of changing.
The change, the transformation, can happen any moment really. Sahaja yoga says: live with what is, and you will be transformed. You don’t have to make efforts to change; truth changes. Jesus says, “Truth liberates.”
-Osho, " In Search of the Miraculous, #8“
If you feel much resistance against meditation it simply shows that deep down you are alert that something is going to happen which will change your total life. You are afraid of being reborn. You have invested too much in your old habits, in the old personality, in the old identity.
Meditation is nothing but trying to clean your being. trying to become fresh and young, trying to become more alive and more alert. If you are afraid of meditation it means you are afraid of life, you are afraid of awareness, and the resistance comes because you know that if you move into meditation, something is bound to happen. If you are not resisting at all it may be because you don't take meditation very seriously. you don't take meditation very sincerely. Then you can play around. What is there to be afraid of?
It is exactly because you are resisting that this is the right place for you. This is precisely the right place for you. The resistance shows that something is going to happen. One never resists without any cause.
You must be living a very dead life. Now you are afraid that something is becoming alive, something is changing. You resist. Resistance is an indication, resistance is a very clear indication that you have suppressed much. Now in meditation that suppression will surface, it will be released. You would also like to be released of the burden but in that burden there are investments.
-Osho, "Ancient Music in the Pines, #4, Q3“